sOmetimes, how bad can life turn us into? Though it can be unfaIr most of the time and aLL, but reaLLy,

how can you tasTe hUppYness withOut a pincH of biTterness?

same thing here ma, how can i reaLise thaT you love me so mucH, without me heaRing your ranTing verYdaY ?

aFwe, i knew you were coming. reaLLy. and i was prepared.very.

I can cHoose to stop all this right now. You, me, our dwell,every night.But ma, i would never want that. I am now 19, and i have always heard you for the past 19, i know i was never to your expectations, but i also know, everytime you yell,talk, shouT, scream at me, i can see you smile.

smIle somewhere down there..... and same here ma, i know i have never looked into your eyes for so lOng and tell you how mucH i really appreciate you, pressed youR leg and weaRing thaT niGht socKs , took out your wHite haIr juZ for some moneY, and how i always complaIned that you love anna more than me , but that doesn't mean i don't remember ma.

so, please ma, please never say that you will not talk to me anYmore, that you won't call me every nighT and daY, and say that i am a big girL now and that i can live on my own - coZ that's wrong, VERY wrong ma.

I can't stay wIthout you ma. Who else i have ma without you, TaTa and nineiRa.

wHo will ever caLL me princess??? *my 1000000 million babY face*

Okie, so i have to remember this, i'm seeing amma in less than 6 hours. And this, i have to remember. all this facts. and also, remember to smile. she'LL meLt at your cHarming smile. and behaVe cUte.verY cuTe.And, acT sad. acT as if you're gonna crY if her tone is stern-or if she caLL's you with your FULL name.

wish me lucK. and, oh gOd, I DON'T WANNA GET GROUNDED. I sweaR i'll fasT till i lose wEighT if i don'T get grounded.

Love you foR who you are...!

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